Because of you
03.31.04 (10:45 pm) [edit]Because of you
my world is now whole,
Because of you
love lives in my soul.
Because of you
I have laughter in my eyes,
Because of you
I am no longer afraid of good-byes.
You are my pillar
my stone of strength,
With me through all seasons
and great times of length.
My love for you is pure
boundless through space and time,
it grows stronger everyday
with the knowledge that you'll always be mine.
At the altar
I will joyously say 'I do',
for I have it all now
and it's all because of you.
updated...
03.29.04 (6:10 pm) [edit]
WOW... today is a great day. it was so sunny. ofcourse work is always crazy! but todays weather in Seattle is really hot...now, it's coolin down, we seattle people aren't use to, to really hot weather.
aside from that, i guess there was a power outage during the week that would totally suck. i ended up calling our apartment manager to see if the power was back on... and surely it was.
my brother's little party was kool. i always love being in my mom's house. even though i don't live there or it's new house that they have bought... i miss them alot. i appreaciate my mom more then ever.
it's almost the emd of the month and well, it's almost time to give up the keys to my other apartment... my co-workers who have a cleaning business will cleaning it for me. it' easier and i know they will do a great job.
for now... i'm going to put up more pixes or my goddaughters and till then... bye!
new layout on PRO Tblog
03.27.04 (3:43 pm) [edit]
Finally... i got my layout up... i still have a couple of things i need to work on... other that that... everything is in place. I don't think i will be changes my layout as often as i use to changed colors. Gosh it's so much work.
yesterday was me and allan's 14 month anniversary... we went to go have a burger at this place called KIDD VALLEY, they have some great burgers and fried mushrooms. Then after we went to DICK's across the street to have a milkshake... Allan gave me flowers... It's the first time i have ever gotten flowers from him...
Today, was my lazy day as i finished the cheese cake and worked on this layout that's getting on my nerves, but it turned out alright. I'm here now waiting for allan so we can head ot to my mom's house for my brother's birthday. I haven't seen my mom in a while...
i will be working on everyone's music request tomorrow... so, till then, take care
i got PRO
03.25.04 (7:31 pm) [edit]
whooo hooo, i am now a PRO blog user for the next year. now i really have to start trying to make a layout... geez help me JOI... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
i'm so tired today, i don't feel like doing anything. so far i bought our tickets for california and purchased my pro tblog. but anyways, i don't have much to say, right now i'm just serching the internet for free layouts i can use for now, till i actually learn how to do it.
At the same time, i'm uploading everyone's request for music. Thanks to everyone who is spreading the word. Keep doing that....
today's gonna be a short blog... so till then... take care!
dooode...
03.22.04 (7:42 pm) [edit]
hahaha, i dunno just feeling really happy... weird for a Monday, when i am always, complaining of how sucky it was at work. but today was an OK kind of day. it was really nice and warm and sunny, then all of a sudden it rained. Now, it's really warm... i got a ride from my co-worker, who lives around the corner. i didn't bring my umbrella and well today allan works night so, i usually take the bus... but since it was raining she offered me a ride.
yesterday, i talked to my sister for about an hour. me and her talked about plans for her baby's christening, chatted about old times and what has been happening in the future. She told me whatever happens I have to go to the christening because i am one of the god parents.. I was so happy. my original plan was to have her as the god parent for my baby too... (when i have one) but she had her's first... so it works both ways...
then i called my uncle to see if it was OK to go and get my braces fixed and well i get em for free since he's a dentist. it's time to get them checked. and fixed. i asked too if it would be OK if Allan came and he said yeah... he seemed to not mind. i think it's time he meet my BF, since he was the unlce that took care of me in the PI.
Last night i finished the laundry...thanks to my babes... who helped me fold the laundry. today, my goal is to fix the boxes in the second bedroom and get them put away. Also, i have some plants i bought from Lowe's yesterday i need to get them planted and in the new pot that me and allan bought. I love you babes.. you alwys let me have what i want, i'm spoiled...
well, i still have things to do around the house... so till next time... take care
waking up...
03.21.04 (1:09 pm) [edit]
gosh, i woke up today with a big headache... i tried to eat, but it's still there. maybe i need to drink more water... my co-workers, since i'm surrounded with people who have medical education. that i need to drink alot of water. so, here i go.
Today, i need to get my avon orders organized and get do the laundry and laundry and wash dishes... so much to do... yet im soo lazy today.
So, i leave you with a poem... tell me what you think. i wrote this awhile back... when me and my boyfriend started going out... i never showed him now he can read it....
I COULD NEVER ASK FOR MORE
Gazing at the stars in a dark cold night
Uttering sweet words beneath pale moonlight
I wish you can see I wish you can hear
I wish you can kiss and hold me tight
I close my eyes and shed those tears
Thinking how far you are from me
Then I look above and see the stars
How they light, they glitter and sparkle
Despite how far they are by sight
I find myself smiling as I realize
That though distance between us
Kept us apart but only in body
And never in heart
You gave me reason to smile
You gave me reason to hope
You gave me so much and
I can never ask for more
errrr....
03.21.04 (12:02 am) [edit]
here i am stressing for money... actually aboutmoney... looking at the whole picture, being in California we're gonna have bills that are due, so that means we have to pay them ahead of time.... We still have rent to worry about too. I guess all i can do is just have faith. Everything will work out the way it is suppose to be...
my babes is sleeping, he has to go to work in the morning and well i don't so here i am writing in my blog. i 'm not really sleepy yet. so, i decided to write a lil.
i called my mom today because, i wanted to ask her where i can buy bathroom rug for a cheaper price. going to wal-mart gosh... i wasn't trying to pay $10.00 for a rug, ONE RUG! so, my mom gave me some tips on buying rugs and stuff. i hope i find the colors i want... i get picky about stuff like that.
i finally found as invinsible counter..... i'm going to try this one out and leave the other one on for awhile. after that i'll take one of them off. i finally figured out why my banner was a different color even though i used the same hex code....i changed back to the old site i downloaded my pictures to.... photobucket is great for pics... but photothru.com is better for my banners... well anyways... enough about that.
i really should be going to bed...nite!
NEW COLORS....
03.20.04 (3:08 pm) [edit]
hmmmm... just finished my banner i used the same color that i use for my blog on my banner when i made it in Photoshop... Why does it look totally different. Geez i don't know... Looks like i'm going to have to ask for some help.
today i went to work for a training session. Everyone was suppose to have it. I didn't care to go but they paid over time so that's good for me...
we ended up paying for the car and the cell phone bill so we still have to wait till next week to buy our tickets for california... hopefully our tax returns come soon. and we can just pay it already.
well, i'm gonna get going for now.
this is what she messaged me
03.20.04 (12:11 am) [edit]This is what she wrote....
My blog IS NOT the place for u to advrtise your blog..... You need to understand that.
--- some Tblog user
all i wrote to her was
hey there... how are you? me nuttin mush just here at home.... checkin out what people got to say
DUDE... bitches are trippin' Why even have the block feature... when there are ways to work around things... she must think im a weirdo!!!! hahahah all i know is i can write whatever i want on a blog... to me if you respond respectively and not be a punk ass when messaging back then i will respond back too. if not then leave it. if you do not want to come back... don't click on my name....
oooopppssss
03.18.04 (8:27 pm) [edit]well i can't make cheesecake for my BF's potluck... we don't have any eggs. I tought we had all the ingredients!
Life's Confusion
Confusion of the paths so over grown
My mind watches a slow falling leaf
Never ending darkness taking the light
To open these eyes I have to believe
No walls around are caving in on me
In the open forest in which I walk
Roses of blood watch me pass by
Hearing the words of the wind talk
Walking this life on my own everyday
Yet, I am never alone in my mind
Which way to go takes my whole heart
This my final choice shall always find
The blooming and dying continues
The life we have will at once end
Just like the path that I have chosen
i wrote this a while back and i had it in my poetry collection i have made throughtthe years. i don't write anymore... maybe later i will start again.
it could have been better
03.18.04 (6:14 pm) [edit]
so, today. Geez, i wake up and i have the DOT. ahhahhahah It totally wore me out. I can't beleive it. Everything didnt even sink in to me. My mind was in total BLAH... i mean i did everything that i had to do, but i was still completely tired and drained out. But i am sure i will get through it. A patient gave me a phamplet that made feel alot better.
Here i am updating my blog, my songs still aren't working... i guess they're still switching servers. Gosh that takes a long time. man...
today, i have to make cheesecake for allan's potluck that they have every month. i have some meeting thing to attend on saturday, well it's training so... i'm going to make some that day tooo...
i haven't got much to say... so for now.... take care
seeing a person have a heart atttack
03.17.04 (7:46 pm) [edit]
okay.... for everyone who is wondering about there music... the place i upload the music to is changing servers so it will be about 48-72 hours they said. After that, all the songs that you have on your web pages will be up and running. i have everyone's request written and i will start downloading everything and uploading everything when the site is up... HEY IT'S A FREE SITE, WE CAN'T COMPLAIN! Everyon's request will be up soon!
i guess yesterday was a really bad day for me and here i am today. it's better. but man, today working in a clinic you see alot of different things. Today i literally saw a person have a heart attack infront of my eyes. he sstates that he has been having some kind of chest pain but it is not a heart attack type thing. well as i got the nurse he started to hurt more and as the nurse had him sit on the wheel chair he started to scream and grab his chest. the nurse told me to call a code and have someone meet her in the emergency section. after that i picked up the phone and page over head. after pressing the numbers i needed to do an ever head page.. i froze and forgot what to say next. i quickly looked at my reference sheet and founf what i needed to announce and i did. i don't know what happen to the guy. All i know is the ambulance came and took him, since us being a small clinic, we dont have the equipment for an emergency and like surgeons and stuff. i sighed and after that went to lunch and everything went back to normal.
well today is allan's day off and it's his turn to cook dinner so, i gotta get going.....
my bad day
03.16.04 (3:06 pm) [edit]I ONLY NEEDED SOMEONE TO TALK TO, TO RECOGNIZE THAT I WAS HAVING A BAD DAY. INSTEAD I WAS BLOWN OFF LIKE NOTHING HAPPENED.
Errrrr… work's been really stressing… I'm going to go clean up the other apartment so it can be out of the way and that it would be ready for my co-workers to clean. Gotta go, I haven't got much to say today.
I LOVE THIS SONG... things to do....
03.15.04 (7:58 pm) [edit]LISTENING TO: NICK CARTER - WHO NEEDS THE WORLD
DEDICATED TO: ALLAN
CURRENTLY: DOING STUFF
I LOVE THIS SONG... THANKS TO AN OLD FREN... this describes the love i have for my babes and my family and his. ..sigh
So, we are finally back up... cool.... but anyways, today is just monday and i guess work was okay. my boss wan't being much of an ass. I was just informed that we have our monthly meeting tomorrow. Whooo hoooo OVERTIME. Haa haa. well, anyways,
Now that T-blog is up after changing servers, i went ahead and updated the music while it was gone. but anyways... so, for those of you looking for music just check out my playlist.... i wonder does anyone ever look?
i'm still tryin to figure out how the scanner works for my PC. i guess with WIN xp, there's a feature so that if your program doesn't work you can use the one that's on here. here i go still messin with it.
i have finally decided on the furniture we want. we went from ikea to different furniture place and found the one we want back at ikea. hahaha i figure since i don't have much room for BIG BULKy couches we can save on those for the REAl house. Since we have more of an apt/town home. We don't need really big couches.
HHHMMMMM i want TBLOG pro. Still deciding.
okay now that i'm all settled into my new home. i gotta get my AVOn stuff back in order. My aunt's been buggin me. Atleast, I still have my customers.
well, gotta get going for now.... take care.
a day to relax...
03.13.04 (2:44 pm) [edit]JAMMIN TO Nelly - Ride with me (John Mayer remix)
CURRENTLY jammin', fixing my playlist.
... hmmmmmm OKAY, so i chang
ed the colors a little bit. i like this color... the other was too dark... but anyways.. i recently downlodeded this song because someone requested it. i like this remix... don't you?
Friday night me and Allan went all over the mall to find some shoes for me to buy. after like five store i finally found soemthing. Also, a top at old navy. Allan got a new shirt and pants. we went to the club to go celebrate my friends birthday party. we decided that since we've been moving this past week that we need a break so we went right afer we came from my mom's house. we had a good time but allan couldn't drink because he was driving... maybe next time we will ride with someone else.
so, allan got approved for his vacation. now we can go ahead and book our tickets to california.... i'm so syked.... he is to! he was really bumded that he might not be able to go. but everything worked out.
Today, i guess we're just going to plan on staying home and relaxing... cleaning the house and all that. so, allan can just hang out since he went to work so early. i feel lazy right now... don't wanna do anything. i just finished uploading songs that people have requested. so, i guess that's it for now....
i'm back... with faster DSL
03.11.04 (8:10 pm) [edit]JAMMIN TO Damage - Forever
DEDICATED TO Allan
CURRENTLY updating my blog and the music, responding to email and defrosting meat to cook for dinner.... :)
OK.. whooo hoooo, i back with faster DSL 1.5 m or something seems faster but not like cable still, atleast i don't haved dial-up... i tired to use the jacked dial up number we had but i guess it don't work no more.. haah ahaa, i guess alot of people are disappointed there dial shit don't work. just get DSL. it's the cheapest way to go. this whole week i've been callin qwest to see when my stuff is gonna be on and finally today it is.
well, here, we are in our apt town home. Whatever you want to call it. we finally gotten most of our stuff unpacked and are working on getting more furniture. like a whole nice set. It's really hard to get all the correct measurements right so we can get it all to fit together. I think i found what might fit and what i might like. We still have to clean the other place up, but we got cleaners to do that and well all ihave to do is clear up all that stuff we have left all over and give it away.
I feel like i'm back home on Beacon Hill we're right by a school and it jst feels like home. anyways...don't be looking for me now hahhhaha
I think i've updated the songs that people requested... now i can DL more songs faster and get em all uploaded... hmmmm i wonder is i can DL movies now... woooo LOTR. Now it seems like my DSL doesn't stall when i'm tryin to DL a song. i'm so excited now, my babes can DL his songs too...
well ta ta for now.....
need music for your blog?
03.06.04 (10:21 am) [edit]Right now i have moved into my new place and my DSL will not be connected till next week. but i will be keeping track of everyone's requests. till then take care!
[?] REQUESTS?
[x] 1. Send me a “Private Message” w/ the subject: REQUEST
[x] 2. Include the name and title of the song
[x] 3. Give me some time to get it, I have more time on weekends
[x] 4. Check back periodically to see if your song is up.
still need music?
03.05.04 (12:01 pm) [edit]Just to let everyone know, I'm keeping track of all requests and my DSL will be up next week and I will be jammin' on getting all the music up loaded…
Damit… hmmmm so, I get home and Allan tells me that the internet's not working. So, I call up and they tell me to call qwest and msn and qwest and msn…. So, here I am getting pissed off. They told me that once my phone line gets on. It takes another 5 business days to get the DSL put in. How pisssy! But I guess, that's OK. I'll just have to update my blog at work…I guess it gives me time to
OK I gotta go..blog later...
finally moved in
03.04.04 (12:07 pm) [edit]
Okay…I'm back, Me and Allan are moved in. We still have to clean up the other place and get all the stuff out soon. It's all worth it now. I got this great big place and now I have to fill it backup again. Ofcourse, with new furniture. Whoo hooo. Now, I'm in the process of upacking. Seems like we almost got everything in order. I've got the kitchen almost all set up… I still have shelving to put up in our media room. But, we don't have the power tool that I need. My co-worker's gonna let us borrow her's and hopefully get it up tomorrow. Yesterday, was the first day that I ever used the fireplace in my "apartment home." Actually it's the first time I've ever used it in any of my apartments since I moved out of my parents home. I figured I might as well since now we have a 2 floor home. It will save me on trying to heat up the whole place. Yesterday, we went to Wal-mart and bought place mats for our bathrooms and geez, they are expensive, I haven't bought new ones in a while and well, we went ahead and bougth them anyway. The floors get really cold and the way that I am I always have cold feet. Unlike my boyfriend he prefers the cold… Moving we changed our home phone number and got a higher DSL speed. I know you ask, why don’t you get cable… well I figure it would be more that what we are spending now and well 256 k was good enough for me and I went ahead and got 1.5 M and it's a little bit faster. I gotta get back to work and well I'll write more later.
this song is for the haters...
03.01.04 (7:44 pm) [edit]
JAMMIN to 2 PAC - ALL ABOUT YOU
DEDICATED TO THE HATERS....
CURRENTLY doing laundry, packing (after blogging)
so today is my last day at m apartment. Whoo hooo! I have the rest of the clothes in the laundry and drying. All i have to do now is put everything together in the living room so all we have to do is pick it up and load. i guess now all i have to do is unpack tomorrow. i have the cable co. cutting the cable tomorrow and the phone lines. i wont have the phone line connected till thursday, and whoo i got a new number.
i guess this is how life is... you win some and you loose some. i got stabbed in the back and i tought they cared. hmmmm maybe i should stabb back and take things into my own hands and do it the legal way. now that's way to go!
Sorry to be so rude with the song... but that's how i feel and i can do that because it's MY blog... i'm not here to comfort anybody... or to be nice just like how some of you aren't. so, keep comin here and check my shit out, coz you live to know what's up with me...
so, to let you know... i wont be bloggin till atleast thursday or friday... so till then, i want to leave you with this:
Proverbs 6
16There are six things the LORD hates--no, seven things he detests:
17
haughty eyes,
a lying tongue,
hands that kill the innocent,
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a heart that plots evil,
feet that race to do wrong,
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a false witness who pours out lies,
a person who sows discord among brothers.