rumor that seems to linger

02.29.04 (11:06 am)   [edit]


Currently listening to: Destiny's Child - Brown Eye's
Dedicated to: Allan
Doin laundry... and packing shit up...and throwing old shit away.



I just got off the phone with my cousin Jenilyn to confirm that her dad is gonna help us move. i guess it's on. my cousin is gonna come visit me on Tuesday to see my new place. Of course she tells me about the drama that hangs over me that i don't know about and that no one seems to say anything about it to me. i don't hate anyone, i'm just not apart of your crowd and i have nuttin to say. just that i keep you in my heart and pray for everyone. even you! i don't understand why you can't just leave me alone and let it be. it's not like i'm asking for money back ot anything. don't get it twisted and try to switch the story around... FUCK... i never went to any of you and kept tryin to hold on. seems like your the person that wants to hold on. i just want you to let go. i have!



i love you mom! thanks for listening to me and giving me the advice you give... i always should have listened to you.



time is coming close and gosh im so excited for the new place, yet, i'm tired moving... what a pain in the butt!!! i'm still deciding of i should rent a UHAL or just use my unlce's truck. i guess i'll give him another call later.



i called my bess fren to ask if she still wanted me to keep her stuffed animals from before, she said yes... because... she is saving it for something. hehehe i know why but can't tell you!



i still have to call my step mom and give her my sister's number. she emailed me and i haven't been able to call her back or anything.



well gtg, talking to my dad.

NEED MUSIC? i got it

02.28.04 (11:51 am)   [edit]


i added linkin park, cam'rom and busta rhymes... still workin on more and still taking requests...



so, allan went ahead and packed the care up with boxes that were sealed and he took em to the townhome. When he picked me up from work we took a second batch and gave my two birdies to my friend from work. There were suppose to give 'em to her mom, but i think she wanted to keep 'em. so, here i am juss relaxin'. pretty soon i'm going to go pack more boxes. Now that we got those out of the way seems like things are gonna get easier... maybe all i'll have to do is get my uncle to help us with the bed. i really dont want to have to rent a uhal van. i'm so syked! my new place has a walkin closet for me and Allan. I'm going to end up putting selves on the wall so we dont have to buy a dresser.



i miss you too sister.... my sis pia sent me a message sayin she misses me. but i haven't been able to got o mom's house because we're in the process of movin' but we'll be there soon, me and allan.



i've been thinking about going to PRO, on tblog... but i still need to get the hang of how to make templates. well i could always DL a layout. i still have to get the codes for putting up the HTML. i figure i'll wait till i can get the hang of it.....



well i gotta get going...i have to pack more boxes.

anger...

02.26.04 (8:31 pm)   [edit]

damn....it's thursday. today me and allan went to get the keys for our new town home... whoo hooo, i'm so happy...



FUCK all these moher fuckin haters...!!! atleast i'm going somewhere and i can do things for myself. the people that come here and hate. shut the fuck up... because you know what who ever you are not sayin names or specifiying. i shouldn't have to because if it's not you... then don't worry about it. because if you do worry about then it must be you. Ever fuckin think of that? Yeah, i fuckin got you and you just make yourself look stupid. what stupidity you have inherited from somebody.... Talk all the shit you want coz like i said you come here to my blog and give me more clicks and more points and i'm moving up the list. To the few of you who think i'm talking about you... your not the only person in my life that gives me shit. i can express what i want to say. atleast i know your still holding on to a part of me.



still packing hahhhha...



so, at work there having me train... people, since the medical records department is going away and computers are taking over for medical records. so, im training people that are not familiar with computers. i guess there training them for job security.



today, i talked to my co worker at work and convince her to hire my fren as a photographer for her wedding. it's gonna save her alot of money... so syke! i gotta start planning for it...



time to go...
okay i gotta get going..

NEED MUSIC?

02.23.04 (7:22 pm)   [edit]


jammin to deesha - fallin inlove

checkout my playlist... and read the directions



[?] REQUESTS?
[x] 1. Send me a “Private Message” w/ the subject: REQUEST
[x] 2. Include the name and title of the song
[x] 3. Give me some time to get it, I have more time on weekends
[x] 4. Check back periodically to see if your song is up.



always,

tasha

my excitement

02.23.04 (4:02 pm)   [edit]


Today, is Monday… I know, I have been complaining a lot about it. But, I can't help it… I wish I could've stayed home. I can't afford anymore vacation hours. I need to save them for my vacation in April to California to see my sister and my uncle and my babes family. Check this out, I checked my email and I get this email from my step mom. She was asking for my sister's number and told me to give her a call and the number they gave me, was the same area code as my boyfriend's family. So, I'm guessing they have moved over there. Who would have thought that they would all end up in the same place. Hahaha LOL just joking!


We finally got Allan's music program working. After trying to upload it and nothing HAPPENING! I finally went on to the web site and figured out what was going on… I uploaded the driver that was needed and there the software uploaded. I experimented with the program and if I can figure it out then he can too. I uploaded all the instrumentals he had on CD's and converted them to WAV files and an extra set as MP3's, so we can save it on another folder. Now he can make his beats and record music on one program.


OK, now this is the week… I AM MOVING…. To my new TOWNHOME… WHOOOOOooooo HHHOOOOooooo!!! I'm for sure going to start PACKING. I have to do so much things. Call Goodwill to donate my couch, give away my birds and PACK, PACK and PACK. We've decided not to take the couch since we are buying new furniture, we're only taking the bed. We gotta get the cable, phone and DSL line transferred over to the new place. It'll be worth it in the end. I'm so happy!


All of a sudden after my break my head hurts. I'm getting a headache again. I hope it doesn't get bad to where I need to take more medicine. I've been taking so much lately. Well, I'm gonna get going for now.




check out my playlist section, need music

02.22.04 (1:41 pm)   [edit]


Still jammin to Deesha - Fallin in love
Feelin sick, gettin a headache again.



ok so, i over slept and now i have a headache. could it be because of that? i dunno, it could be a number of things, maybe it's a coffee headache... i want starbucks! After all isn't seattle where all the coffee is? :lol:



So, here i am now, trying to finish the laundry with a punding headache. hahahah my babes just called. he's wondering if we could for sure start to pack our blongings. i said sure. i think i'm well enough to where we could start. hhhhmmm.. i still have some other hings to do. i have to call goodwillt o pick up the couch, find someone who wants my birds. i haven't been able to give them the attention the need. i really want them but i don't have the time to make sure they are behaved...



well, by the way if you need music for your blog... check my playlist out and if there's some thing you want to make a request... let me know.

NEED MUSIC? more diamonds

02.21.04 (6:23 pm)   [edit]


JAMMIN TO DEESHA- FALLIN IN LOVE



Part II of my blog for today...



Well, remember the idea i had earlier. i finally decided to go through with it. since most people ask me about my music. i have finally opened up the door and have posted how to do it. checkout my playlist... and read the directions



[?] REQUESTS?
[x] 1. Send me a “Private Message” w/ the subject: REQUEST
[x] 2. Include the name and title of the song
[x] 3. Give me some time to get it, I have more time on weekends
[x] 4. Check back periodically to see if your song is up.



always,

tasha



Part I



OK so today i'm feeling alot better. i still have my head aches... but anyways. yesterday when allan came home from work he came home and experimented with his new music program that we got. so, i called to make sure he was awake and he said he wanted to go to the mall so i said okay!. i don't know why he wanted to go... but when he got to my work. i asked again and he told me, that he wanted to buy me my diamond earrings. i was really surprised... and we went to mall and we found the pair i wanted. it matches my necklace, there both princess cut. i love the place where we got it. i didn't know that we could do an upgrade. basically when i want to get something better, i mean bigger, you get your money back including taxes or basically pay the difference and get a bigger diamond. so in the future that's what we're going to do.



hmmmm.... i just had an idea for my page. we'll see if i could make it happen...



so, today i really plan to start packing atleast whatever we're not using. being sick has really taken a toll on me... i hope i'm getting better and hopefully not get sick anymore.



my mom and sister just got back form california. my grandparetns stayed there and will be going in april... i can't wait. i need a vacation to clear my mind.



that's all that's going on for now... till then take care...

FEELIN ICKY!

02.19.04 (9:35 pm)   [edit]

STILL JAMMIN TO AL GREEN... Damn, i'm sick more sick. so, i guess the FLU shot didn't really help me. this is my first year getting it. the doctors at work made sure that everyone in the clinic got it... i guess it's so i wont get the full blown virus or whatever you want to call it. what makes it worse is that i'm on my time of the month and i'm just sick, sick and more sick. why me? sitting at my desk today with a pounding headache. trying to stay happy and consistant. errrr.... gosh that was hard. i must have drugged my self with so much medicine. now being home they all wore out and i started to get drowsy. i guess now i feel okay. i don't want to take to much medicine, so my body wont depend on that.



so, here i am trying to download every driver i know needed to upload my babes program. while clicking into the website i found what i needed to download. hahahhaah.... i was so syked and so i did and saved all the beats and loops needed and i started to test the beats out. i made my own compilation using a violin loop, because i use to play the violin in elementary. it's not the greatest but i was proud of myself. LMAO. i think my babes will be very happy with it. he has more options also. and he can record his voice...



hmmmmmm... man we haven't bought our tickets for caifornia yet... gosh moving is a pain in the ASS. but it will be worth it in the end to not have such a crowded space. i haven't packed anything yet. probly becasue i'm so sick and tired.



okay my heads hurting... gotta go now!

my ultimate love song

02.16.04 (5:12 pm)   [edit]


JAMMIN TO - AL GREEN - LET'S STAY TOGETHER
FEELIN' KOO AND LOVIN ALLAN



whoo hoo i got me and my babee's song... well atleast one of them. he dedicated this to me. i love it. after we are married we're going to walk down the isle to this song.. that's how great it is. i love it.. i love it.. i love it.. what else can i say it's catchy and our families young and old can relate to it.



i wonder how things will be in the future? now that me and allan are moving to the town home. i'm so excited. i can't wait. it'll be rough for a lil bit. moving is a pain in the fuckin ass! i wish i could just snap my fingers and poof there goes everything and into the new place. it's not as simple as that. thanks to my wonderful family for helping me.



my cousin is dating. wow i can't believe it. she's so grown up. no wonder why she hasn't called me much she talking to boys and daitng and having a great time being a teenager. i'm so happy for her. RID of drama in her life. her mom is so relieved that she's out of it.



i guess there's going to be people out there who will always say crap about me. even though they play like they have halo's around their head and try and make me feel sorry for people. my heart bleeds, but only for those who bleed for me. if i don't care, i dont.... leave it at that.



i guess that it's for now....i'm so happy i got our song up to play.

NEW PLAYLIST...

02.15.04 (1:03 pm)   [edit]


Okay so, i finally fixed the playlist section. No, i don't upload it myself. but maybe someday i will. i went ahead and took out the ones that dont work and added new ones. so if you notice... there all pretty much hip hop, rap and r & b. so if there's something you want for your page let me know and i'll be happy to supply you wth the link.



Today is my co-worker's, baby's party. so that what we have planned to go to. it's really nice of her to invited me. she's like the person i talk to a work. probly becasue she is more my age and we have alot of things in common.



well me and allan are still sick and we didn't go all out for valenines day. i got allan his music software and we went shopping for me. whooo hooo.



i don have much to say... so till next time...


feelin sick

02.14.04 (1:42 pm)   [edit]

oh man, VALENTINE's day. whooo hooo! who is your valentine? mine is ALLAN. Happy Vanlentne's Day everyone.


here i am feelin really sick. i think i got it from my babes, he hasn't been feelin well either. so, maybe i caught it from him, i drank his orange juice... i woke up this morning feelin really stuffed up. i took some medicine and went back to sleep. i had a weird dream and i woke up to allan calling me.


i guess today we're going to be doing some shopping for me. hopefully i find something...errrr.... i hate shopping when there's hella people i get all pissed off, coz people act stupid.


even though i'm sick i still have time to write this about allan.



To my most precious love
The one who was sent to me from up above



I want to thank you for sharing this day with me
For your beautiful face is the only one I want to see



I will never take for granted the love that we now share
It is something so precious to me and to the world very rare



The world’s view of Love is not what I would call true
But True Love is what is expressed between me and you



I would give up everything to ensure that this love would last
This is soo different from any relationship I have ever had in the past



This is more than just one of those flings
This is something I feel will someday end in the exchanging of rings



I love the way you look at me with those tantalizing BROWN eyes
Or the way you make me feel when we are saying our long “goodbye’s”



I love the sense of peace I get when you are near
Or the excitement I feel when your sweet voice I hear



Your beauty makes it hard not to stop and stare
I love your eyes, your face, your lips and your beautiful hair



You are so perfect to me in every way
I love you more and more with each passing day



It is hard to express to you in words exactly how I feel
I know that anyone can say the words, but trust me this is the real deal



I have never wanted something so much in my life
Than to be able to call you my husband someday



Even though I don’t feel that the timing is right
And I don’t know the day or night



I will love you like each day is going to be the last
That way I will never ever regret the past



God has brought our hearts together for something more
And when I see Him open up that door
It will be the greatest day of my life



Happy Valentines Day Babe!

still jammin'

02.12.04 (9:06 pm)   [edit]

STILL jammin to J LO! hhahaha but anyways, i got new colors.... can't say layout and shit, because it's always the same, but oh well....


once again our PC crashed...they wanted me to pay $100.00 to fix it when they reason why it crashed, was because he told me to try and fix it with my disk. so, it got reformatted and then i brought it in. if he would have just told me to come and get it looked at ,maybe it would have made it easier for him and less charge for me. i also said " you guys were suppose to call me before, doing anything." errr, atleast i got the price down.


a couple of days ago, it was an OK day and all of the sudden it rained so hard and lightning and thunder was heard. i heard a spark from the printer that was by my desk and it malfunctioned. how craxy is that. the lightning actuallly struck an airplane at sea-tac airport, that was on the ground and a man was doing maintainance work on it. talk about close. it sounded like something crashed outside.



tomorrow is friday the 13th, once of those every couple of year, moments. tomorrow we're going to go and buy allan's music software he wanted. so that we dont have to download so much programs from certain sites.


here comes valentine's day. who's your valentine? who is my valentine, DUH, Allan. hhahha LOL.


as i figure out why my scanner is not working...errrrr, i think i just need to get a new scanner... all i know is that my program for it is not compatible with WIN XP, so, that's probly why. errr.... damit!



well, gotta go DL music again!

my new phone

02.05.04 (7:26 pm)   [edit]


LISTENING TO J Lo ft R Kelly - Baby I love you (remix) (click here to re play)
CURRENTLY relaxin' scanning pics...
DEDICATED TO Allan



ok ok ok last friday... i got my new phone, i've been waiting for this phone forever.... errrrr I LUV IT!!!! thanks for letting me get it babee.... here it is...


WoW it's february and almost valentine's day.... who's your valentine. Mine is Allan... my huney. and hmmmm to answer the question no we're not married but we will be! i can't wait this is our actual last month here in the apartment, coming in march we will be moving soon to the new town home.....


i've been feeling a bit sick that's why i haven't able to blog lots....after awhile all you want to do is sit and watch TV.... Law and Order SVU hahhaha! but anyways besides that... i've been at my mom's house and at work. Last week we went to my God daughter's party and well it was nice to see her. i've been busy lately...


Tonight i will be looking for prices for plane tickets and seeing where the best ones are... so, i gotta start searching...


.... sadness

02.02.04 (12:52 am)   [edit]


so, why does this always happen. i dunno why i feel like this. sometimes, you just try to express you feeleings by a touch or a kiss. and i guess he doesn't feel the same feeling that i have. i guess it was seen or felt another way and here we are mad and hmmmmm... i dunno. it makes me wonder why this always happens to me. i just want to me held and loved. the way i want it to be... no questions asked. all i hear is snoring in the background while i shed tears of hurt and questions go hrough my head... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHH..... and all can do after that is laugh, be confused and more confused and more confused and more CONFUSED.... i guess there's really nothing i can do about it or change it and i guess when words are being exchanged and feelings are being expressed and well i dont know, i really don't!


And it won't go away.
This endless sea of pain
Envelopes me.
I'm drowning in this sorrow
Drowning in my thoughts
Reaching out blindly
Searching for someone
Struggling to choose
As I sink slowly to the bottom
I close my eyes...i'm lost