plain Black and White
08.31.03 (5:57 pm) [edit]HHHHMMMM..... :shock: it's been about a month since i started blogging here and to tell you the truth... this is my first time. I've done asian avenue.. and apt 107, i hate having to update all those places, but now i have tblog. i'm juss trying to get those pages to redirect to here i only got one so far.
man, i dont like this color i wanna change it. to what i dunno, im going to look at some color charts. I like simple stuff...
like my new colors... hahhaha yeah black and white i tried a purple... but i ono the color is to bright i'm gonna stick to this for a while maybe change my font color.... sometimes color is too much, it's better to be natural... wait that only works for make-up... ooops!
damn... chatter box is takin toooo long to load so i can change it.... :roll: .:sigh:. n .:waiting:. ..... OK it went through... but i'm still waiting.
i wanna take out that i'm chillin icon, it's a mood meter thing... it just looks cheesy there. plus everyone has it already... maybe i will use my imood thing it's small and not big and bulky...
me allan and christina... we're going out to the club. like i said yesterday.. im going to make a grand entrance... hhahha
OH i forgot to tell you... allan wrote me a poem... i have to ask if i can publish it first.
i'm gonna go and make coffee, catch you later.
my name...
08.30.03 (4:46 pm) [edit]
my name in sand in HAWAII so, i can go back...
but, anyways.... well here i am at home. trying to find a redirection code so that all my pages will just go here. that would be kool.
my BF went to work, he's workin the late shift today. i haven't been away from him in a while. so im juss here chillin, be on the computer a while to update my blogs and stuff. gonna clean and cook a lil, then update my palm pilot. i guess im juss havin "time to my self day"
we're suppose to be going out today but i dunno i juss woke up and i still have to call christina.
i guess there's no hula tomorrow. coz it's labor day and stuff.. makes sense
... my sister had her baby... i guess... i dunno maybe it's the same date as mines... YIPPPEEE :P
i guess we're not going to the club tonight :roll: turns out it's tomorrow. well... me, allan, christina and JP still gonna go. it's gonna be interesting. i haven't been out to the club in a long time. it's time to make an appearence :P hahhaah LoL
i'm so glad it's a 3 day weekend. i've been needing this. even though my BF is working it'sOK. he's doing his intern stuff :!:
i did a couple more changes to my blog.... i found out how to do the text thing and i change my scroll bar colors and well i got my apt107 page to redirect here. i'm still workin on asian avenue and xanga. i opened a xanga spot a while back and decided tblog was best for me. I WANNA BE DIFFERENT :!: :!: :!: hahahha but i still keep in touch with the people on there but not much. making new frens here is kool. juss to let u folks know, if you see u're link on the left hand side i read your blogs almost everyday and keep up with your LIVES hahahahha if you publish it anyone can read it oh and Rocky (one of the people who head this site) ofcourse i read yours too... and thanks this the only site that has granted my wishes
my birthday
08.29.03 (10:50 am) [edit]it's my birthday and i'll cry if i want to :? WELL YESTERDAY WAS ….errr.... hmmmm i'm broke on a birthday AGAIN!!! what else is new.
i checked my tblog today and i got like almost 200 tbucks. what can i use it with? nuttin yet. my boyfriend said that he's gonna make me a banner. so i juss up load that use the URL, which is easier. i wish i knew how to make cool ones. i have photoshop at home but not really familiar with it. BUT i will try and use it.
So what did I do for my birthday? Well, allan didn't have to work yesterday and he stayed home cleaned the house, did the laundry while I was at work he marinated some chicken which was really good. He basically did everything while I did some pampering on myself like soaking my feet and taking a hot shower and plucking my eyebrows. Hahhaaa I haven't done to those things in a while. THANKS babe!
Today is payday, where is it going to my RENT and the cell phone bill. And I'm broke again!!! I wanted to ask my lanlord if it was OK that I pay half when rent is due and half the next pay day. Coz I still need to buy tickets for me and my boyfriend to go to california for his nephew's christening. I wonder how much that's gonna cost. Where are the best places to get those prices. I don’t know…..
I finally got my pictures uploaded yesterday, gosh my PC slow. Ofcourse I got DIAL-UP. Hahha but I guess it's OK since it's free internet.
Haahaaa…. I'm gonna go for now… take care
my GODdaughter...
08.27.03 (10:25 am) [edit]
isn't she cute.. i have more recent pics... i juss need to update them and get it all set.. up.... here on my sidebars. but she's 2 1/2 years old now!!! she's a cutie, SORRY i was juss thinking about her.
part II
08.26.03 (11:16 pm) [edit]... today is me and allan's 7 month anniversary. i didnt want to write anything because i wanted to say happy anniversary first. but then.... he came home from his intern and he went to my work. when he got there i was on break and then we looked for eachother all over the place... hehehehe :lol: finally we found eachother out side, he said it first and gave me a poem he wrote... how sweet huh??? well im gonna head out to bed.... nite!
banner, it's cheesy!!!
08.26.03 (1:10 pm) [edit]
WOW...
my banner.. hahhaah how cheeszzy... hahah but anyways... yeah that's juss a temporary one till i can get a more personalized one. so, i'm gonna keep writing later on.
sometimes... i get tired of writing in here. seems like no one really reads this.
today, my boyfriend stared his intership. he's going to be graduating soon. i'm so happy for him. it's something he wants to do. now, i gotta get my ass back in school too.
sorry...i've been out
08.25.03 (11:20 am) [edit]
gosh, im tired today… all that excitement from competiton. we placed 2nd and 3rd. well, maybe better luck next year, I know we could've done better. we competed againts hawaii and california. Gosh, I got pictures back last week, I got some of them scanned but I still have to upload them and get them posted. Maybe I should take some of theses pctures off?! Their just old news and stuffers. Hmmhmmm.
I have a headache, not really more like feeling dizzy. It's probly due to lack of sleep. i'm really tired I feel like my immune system is breaking down on me. Haaahhaa I don’t think that's really likely something that will happen. Atleast not for a long while.
Oh MAN yesterday, was really koo. I went to do hula workshops on Sunday and I took a class from auntie Sissy from hawaii, we did and auana called nani venuse. Oh so pretty to dance and gosh it makes me like auana a lot. her steps are different and she did everything at a 45 degree angle. But it's really pretty once you get the hang of it.
cont.. a poem
08.21.03 (4:40 pm) [edit]If time could stand still, I’d freeze it here,
So you’d always hold me, close and near.
In your arms, where I’m meant to be,
Filled with the perfect love you’ve given me.
A bond so strong, a hold so tight,
To know you’re the one; my ‘Mr Right’.
A blessing sent from up above,
In you I’ve found my one true love.
Our lives entwined to be as one,
Upon this journey we’ve just begun.
Where you and I will find no less,
Than eternal love and happiness.
ahhh, i'm OK
08.21.03 (3:37 pm) [edit]Oh man… tomorrow is competition and geez… im excited not really scared and i cant wait to actually get going tomorrow. tonight, I have a couple of things I need to do. 1. iron my costumes and my cousin’s too 2. braid my hair and put curlers in 3. review my fact sheets for our interview. Yea, we get interview. We’re going to be taking a break from competition this year. Well, not really, at least were not doing the fall ones and were just going to hold off until May 04 and Nov 04 we’ve been invited to do competition in Hawaii, it’s like an invitation only type thing. i'm excited.
ERRRRRRRRRRRRR
08.20.03 (12:39 pm) [edit]why does everything come at me constantly? when things seem to get better something happens. i think that when i talk i am too much of a bitch. my opinions are too strong and i guess no one really wants to hear them… I feel like sometimes my patience is being tested and lately it’s being tested a lot. I have so much things going on, people don’t understand that maybe they can help out and make it easier for me and not cause the stress that goes with it.
the people in my life are the ones I choose to be around, lately I’ve been wanting them out of my life. WHY!!!
im tired...
08.18.03 (3:00 pm) [edit]
Stayin up and crying is not all worth it, sometimes…you sleep better after crying. I'm tired and I still have hula today. I still need to sew 8 more tops for hula. Well yeah, I was almost done but we decided to make another set for Friday. A different color, different style. My goal is to finish all of it tomorrow.. Tuesday, there's no hula practice, so, maybe get two done today and and the rest tomorrow.
I still have fact sheets to do, I have them memorized from a long time ago but I don’t remember it. Maybe a lilttle refresher.
But before I go to hula, I gotta get some sleep. I'M TIRED…
Sometimes, I feel bad for my boyfriend. It seems like I hurt him… like emotionally. He never tells me if there's something wrong with him. But I always tell him if there's something wrong with me. Well eventually I do….
i'm empty.... i can't sleep
08.18.03 (2:50 am) [edit]
errrr... it's monday morning... really early!!! i really should be sleepin' but i can't. i hurry and finish what i'm doing so i can spend time with my boyfriend and he ends up sleepin. so here, i am awake, sittin' infront of the computer and typin my tblog... errrrrrrr
so, tell me why is it sometimes you dont feel wanted in a place you really wanna be. the person that is there with you is not the same person anymore. it's hard to have that same feelin in it. when you see all the lies and tricks that they do. at the same time you wanna leave because this person in not the same but you still want to do what you were doing.
sometimes i still feel empty. i dunno why or what it is. juss really like empty inside. maybe it's my bess fren. she's the only one i consider a fren even after my frens from high school fucked me over. but now she went through her time of crisis and it seems like she never let me know what was going on. i dunno if she ever needed me. i've needed her quiet a few times to console me and to listen. we were the type of frens that when you don't talk for a while things NEVER changed. and these couple of months it has. i dunno where everthing stands. i guess she's the last fren i've had from the past that i will be loosing. hopefully it wasnt my fault.... maybe because of this emptiness i have, my boyfriend doesn't understand my ways sometime!!! coz i still need that person away from him to console to.... even though i always tell him everything.... i love him.
...my boyfriend is still sleepin'
saturday seems like a weekday...
08.16.03 (11:34 am) [edit]
i'm here at work and it's pretty slow today but man, there's alotta people in the pharmacy. all the old folks getin their prescriptions
things to do after work...
1. get money order for car
2. turn in film for developing
3. pay house phone bill
4. pay cell phone bill
5. pay elictric bill
and owe money back to my cousin...
New stuff... music and later pics....
08.15.03 (10:41 am) [edit]i deceided to use my old music thing from one of my other pages, i don't use anymore. this is like my ultimate favoite song. download it for your listening pleasure.
Today, is friday TGIF.... haa i got hula today, lily my hula sister isn't probly gonna compete due to a family situation. i feel really bad for her. :cry: so, she's not goin to be able to sing for us.
speaking of TGIF, don't you miss the old shows like family matters and step by step. and i dont have cable so i cant really watch em if they're playin on other sations.
today, im at pharmachy doin cashierin over here.... gosh i can't believe she called in. she's such a faker.
. : sigh : . aisjiana, MY BABY!!!
Changes....
08.14.03 (12:26 pm) [edit]
OMG.... we got a new feature added on tblog.com!!! i'm really lovin' it. I've been wanting to put up that chatter box up for a long time and im not a xanga user, so, i didn't have the option to use it there.
my babes is such a sweety... i wove you!!! relationships are like roller coasters they go UP and DOWN. like my boyfreind he doesn't like rollercoaters and i dont like the DOWNS of a relationship. ERRRRRR. but you i know, i don't think my UPs and DOWNs are bad. :o
Why do people over react? Why do they make themselves stress out?
Continuation....
...OH man, there really makin changes. but i'm still here juss bloggin around, while xanga is still havin problems.... cammon' all site's have technical difficulties, and they're FREE so, what can we complain about? hee hee but u know i was really freakin out, about an hour ago.
Gosh, work has sooo much drama. I hate it when this one lady. she juss gets herself all worked up after she gets caught by our BOSS not comin back on time. then she says her blood pressures all high.. fuck that she only works half day. she should juss retire
my babes, is in the kitchen cookin', i'm teachin him so he can learn too!!! what dish are we cookin today? BISTEK for all you filopino's hah haaa LOL
MAN, competition is getting crazy... what's going on? all this non communication shit....errrr
SO WHAT'S GOING ON WITH "ARCHIVES" IF IM ONLY SHOWING 3 WHY WONT IT SHOW THE REST OF MY OTHER ENTERIES WHEN WE CLICK ON ARCHIVES?....but you know.. i still love my tblog!!!!
i admit...
08.13.03 (4:33 pm) [edit]
OK, OK, OK i admit, i am still lookin for other blog spots. a couple of people have been givin' me some places to got to and i'm juss tryin' to see if there's any other spots that will be uit me better, so far no luck... i'm really use to tblog.com. OK everyone, i'm like what you call a BLOG hopper. well, i found this spot because of my close fren joysha. but i still have to test it out she knows everything about the internet. hahaa love you ading (lil sister)!!!
today is wednesday and we have hula today. i love dancing hula but it juss gets me hella tired, probly due to the fact that we've been practicing alot more intensly or my ass is gettin' big. ha ah a... guess what? it aleady is.
competition is coming up next week and i still have matching tops, i have to do for all girls in hula. there's a total of 8 and i finished 3 and i started 1 last night. i think i can get that done by the end of the week. man, i need my own sewing machine. i don't sew much but when it comes to it, i could really use it. so, what's the solution for now? borrow mom's!!! ha ha ha, but i really need to get one auntie sherry gave me and old skool one, i took a look at it but it didn't work for some reason. then i left it by the trash can at my apartment and someone took it.
... what kind of people care?
08.12.03 (1:33 pm) [edit]hey there everyone... what's going on? it seems only a few people care about what you actually write.... in these things! and to those few thank you (ading joysha) hahaha hey I guess part of the problem is that i need to let my frens know about my blog. errrr, it's frustrating i do, but does everyone check NO but, that's ok! it's probly coz nobody leaves a mark (comment).
GOSH, i got so much stuff i gotta do today. i still have to sew like 8 tops for the girls in hula to use.... i mean their really easy but i gotta get goin on it today... i guess i'll do all that after i cook dinner for my BABES. :wink:
hmmmm, what shall i cook today? maybe vegetables that mom gave me before they start rotting in my fridge and i don't even know it. ha my mom's been so kool... especially now that she met my boyfriend. my mom's leavin' to go to cali on wednesday, i wish i could go. but i can't get any more days off of work. it's my aunt's party and their gonna have it at my uncle's house, it's just that everybody's gonna be there.... :!: but it's OK, there's always next time.
my house needs to be cleaned juss the whole house in general and man my birds... i've neglected them so bad ever since me n allan have been spending all our time together, i need to start showing them more love. hahah (they swak so much)
xanga, is gown as i hear from fellow members... some of my links are people who have sites on there. for those of you reading this. tblog.com is cool, it simple and you can make it look nice seems as though they will be having alot more options in the future... so hang in there!
BIRTHDAYS
08.11.03 (1:26 pm) [edit]
so, why is it today is the day, the people i know have birthdays and it's also my boyfriends birthday... hahaha
:D :) :wink: ..... today i'd like to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my baby [b]ALLAN,[/b] my lil sis [b]AMY[/b] and my fren [b]HIL[/b]...... HA SEE, I REMEMBERED..... WOW you guys are a year older.
[u][b]TO MY BABES... ALLAN [/b][/u]I AM SO HAPPY TO BE WITH YOU, ON YOUR SPECIAL DAY. AND I WILL ALWAYS BE WITH YOU ON ALL THE OTHER DAYS.
[b]ADING AMY.... [/b]you're so grown up now, i know i haven't been around in a while, but when it counts juss give me a call.
[b]HIL[/b]... YOU'RE CRAZY, i wish you the best of luck on whatever career path you take...
WOWSERS... we have let's see 1..2..3.. 11 ore days till COMPETITION. yeah, i was sweatin really bad at practice... i think were doing pretty good.
[b]AUNTIE JANESTA[/b] leaves today, she been keeping auntie addie company since [b]UNCLE JOHN[/b] died. i hope she will be OK. sighs...
[b]WHAT A FREAKIN' SHIT[/b]. don't you hate it when you can tell when people take your [b]HTML[/b] ideas? i mean mine isn't the greatest but you can figure it out when you see their shit and the color and size is the same.... as YOURS. oh man, HA and she thinks i can't look at her codes... [b]YOU'RE[/b] stupid... Ok i feel better now :x !
I got my AVON order in from my fren [b]KAMAILE[/b], she's crazy!!!! i only spent 11 bucks on my order except for the other stuff i was gonna get which will only be like 8 bucks. why so cheap? coz i helped her sell the stuff at my [b]WORK.[/b]
da Weekend
08.09.03 (1:50 pm) [edit]
hmmm... just woke up and cooked lunch fer allan. SINCE HE KEPT MESSIN AROUND TRYIN TO TICKLE ME.... i couldn't cook breakfast!!!! hahah. but anyways, we gonna go somewhere wit my mom today. :wink:
so , tell me, how come sometimes the two things you love dont seem to clash but i guess it wasnt what it seemed to be. :roll:
but anyways... my cousin, jenilyn, juss told me this girl who use to be her fren in elementary or middle school posted her pic and put BITCH on it... pretty childish you know what she's in ALASKA now!!!! how retarted, these kids are like 15 yrs. old. i can't help but be in on it.... :evil: i dunno you check it out fer your self MiSSYNANA :twisted:
it's FRIDAY
08.08.03 (9:26 am) [edit]
YEAH...i woke up earlier and i got here 5 min right before i start. One of my frens asked, "if i get here on time, why does it matter" because i'm suppose to be ready before i start. i know, i know, it's really stupid. hahaha.... :x But i guess part of that reason, is just to wake up on time... why? to be a girl... you know, like put on make up and eye-liner and lip stick. i hate it when i dont feel good in the morning. i cant just throw clothes on and put my hair up... when at work i'm the only "asian" girl that's young. plus, we have to look professional at work... not juss the kind where you dress up and go to work at the mall or a fast food place. it's a clinic setting, besides getting all dressed up makes my day go better and i dont feel like my BOSS is looking at me and comparing me to our dresscode :?
wow, here i am at my desk.... really I have only one doctor today on my side and it's slow as hell! but today i got hula practice today, so im gonna go home and sleep, coz i'll probly be tried as hell.
Waking up ....
08.07.03 (9:04 am) [edit]geez... i finally woke up earlier than what i've been have been wakin' up at, but did i get to work earlier, NO. :x i got to work at the same time, just no rushing. i guess, what happens is that i end up sleepin late. now, that i have a car and i'm not use to bein up early anymore... shoot i need to get this out of my system, anyone got any ideas? :P
WoW... I'm learning new stuff about this blog site... i think this the best one so far that i've been venturing out to. :!:
hmmm, i've been checking out all these other people blogs on here and some are pretty exciting and some are boring.... i guess i like the one that talk about things that reflect them, those are the kind of random blabbings you can tell what kind of a personality a person has
you know life is very strange, it's puts you through the hardest times and then you end up in a situation that you wish never ends.... im in that point right now and you know i dunno, how it would be like if i went back to how it use to be. you know, i can just live one day at a time...
why do we have arguments
08.06.03 (1:18 pm) [edit]
So, how is it that we have arguments in relationships? :? And why does it have to happen? It all works out in the end and apologies are said and both sides are forgiven. But why couldn't we just figure everything out in the beginning and talk instead of use walking out and not talking. This is the first time I've yelled in a long time, and the first time I've yelled at him infront of his face and the same from his side. Everyone's first insticnt is to run away from situations, but why do that and face a bigger consequence later on and just figure everything out… I dunno I duess life is juss full of those, I juss wish they would stop….
Monday, was 8.4.03 the temporary license plate I had was expiring, good thing we got it over the weekend, and yea… I got my license plate!!!!! :shock:
man over the weekend, we had this fundraising luau thing and whatever the profits were, we got 25%... I mean that’s koo. But, man we WERE DOING A LOT MORE, than the percentage that we are getting, I mean we decorated, cleaned, served and dance at this thing you know what the other group didn't even help…. WHAT'S GOING ON!!!!!!:oops:
it's competition month and well here we are practicing FOUR times a week, I guess we need to, we've been slackin' due to current events that we have been dealing w/ as a halau. All's well that ends well… we'll see what happens…. :o